Ended last night overeating. Gave myself a cheat day with no restrictions. Unfortunately, those days often backfire because I become numb to my body. I don't feel full. I overeat carbs and really anything I can get my hands on. I'll go into debt to feed a binge. I went $33 over what I budgeted. Small number? Maybe. Maybe not.
The trouble I'm having is the chatter in my head. The temps are in the high 80's. I'm uncomfortable in my body, sweating and a little irritable. I'm trying to listen with my ears and not my mouth to my nieces. It's hard removing myself from their bickering. I love them. I'm a better aunt when I'm listening and not lecturing.
Today is a better day. I felt physically and emotionally bad about my food choices. I've been drinking water like I can't get enough. I wanted to blow my food for the weekend but I've been trying to give myself positive feedback through changing my behavior. It's so hard letting go of this relationship. One that has deceived me.
Deceive me once, shame on you.
Deceive me twice, shame on me.
