Dear God,
Well, I did it. I broke up with Steve late Saturday afternoon. I did it over the phone so I wouldn't get into a laundry list of what was wrong. The bottom line is he lied to me and he lied about me to his sister. He was quiet, no apology then the conversation abruptly ended. It was awkward.
When he messaged me on Facebook, I felt bad for him. He doesn't have a personal relationship with you so the idea of being alone scares and saddens him. His need to be with someone will never fill the hole in his heart. Only you can do that and my prayer is that he finds You soon.
Father, I grieve the loss of his good stuff. While I can't allow anyone to treat me like a subordinate or less than equal, I will miss his smile. Not much else, come to think of it. All I can think of is the negative.
So, I go about my day as best I can. He'll be here after work to pick up his things and bring mine. I guess that will be the end. The final good-bye.
I wish him well and place him into Your capable and trustworthy hands.
Your loving daughter,
Amy Kathleen
PS: Please forgive me for entering into a relationship with a non-believer. Now I understand why I need to be equally yolked. Prayer and apology mixed with character flaws and forgiveness go a long way. You will always be my first love. I'm not sure what the future holds but I would like to share my life with someone who loves all of me but loves you first.
