June 26, 2012...Mario passed away after a long battle with brain cancer
June 28, 2012...Email from Soni about her sister Pam having 80% pancreatic cancer
July 1, 2012...Joyce Ryan's daughter Diane died from brain cancer this morning
Surrounded by pain. And Justin, Alicia's kitty, died.
Heavy hearted.
Want to isolate.
Keeping inside.
Don't want to talk to Steve.
Would rather curl up and fade out.
Stop feeling, stop all sadness, stop all pain.
For everyone.
Chelsa, Neena, Nadia, Ana, Melissa, Tracy, Bill, Soni, Pam, Shel, Bud, their Mom, Tom, Joyce, Ashley, her family. Alicia, Samantha, Hope. Kim, Tracy, Diana, Steve, Pam, Shawnda, Dale, Joe, Jon, Tina, Ryan, Hope, Samantha, Alicia, me, Tracy, Mom, Carol, Alex.
Death hurts so many people and nothing I do or say can ever take away the pain of the loss.
Nothing.
I am completely powerless.
