For the past week I've been filled with thoughts regarding the stronghold eating has in my day to day activities. I'm an emotional eater whether I'm happy, sad, angry or grieving. I fully submit this sin to you. Honestly, I'm afraid to let it go.
This besetting sin has bound me. It cuts me off from good health. I want what You want for my body and the rest of my life. I want to be forever healthy.
Here's my covenant to You for 2011:
First, I will greet you in the morning and evening no matter how I'm feeling.
Second, I will take all meds when they are supposed to be taken.
Third, I will record calories, measure body and share via talk/email with Marie.
Forth, I will read my daily bible study and Grief Share email.
Fifth, I will read the Disciples Fast at least once a week.
Sixth, I will give myself solitude when tough emotions surface.
Seventh, I will pray for the needs of others.
Eighth, I will surround myself with healthy people.
Ninth, I will listen for your whispers then obey them to the best of my ability.
Tenth, I will keep a blog to express my feelings and write when I hear from You.
I won't be perfect.
This sin has deep roots that need to be pulled out.
I know you love me just as I am.
I know you have plans to draw me closer to you.
I know you want to give me a brighter future filled with hope.
Someday, I hope to return to Carol for support in this change.
I will fast on Mondays and Thursdays for one year to break the begetting sin of gluttony.
Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.
Your struggling daughter, Amy Kathleen
